EMDR Therapy

So I have officially started EMDR therapy about 3-4 weeks ago, but it started out just talking about my history and background, and that took a couple sessions in its own. I noticed I am remembering even more things that I wish I never did. Things that I wish would stay buried into the dark abyss that I put them to start with. BUT our abuser gets off parole February 24th 2023 at noon and I am preparing. I still have yet to see him since he went to prison for his plea deal of 2nd degree child abuse, instead of 1st degree. I honestly used to think that I would run from him, or have a sensory breakdown, but in all honesty, I think it would end badly for him instead of me.

My hope of starting EMDR therapy after being diagnosed with anxiety and ongoing C-PTSD because of his family and him, and starting a new medication, is that if I run into him, I will continue to feel pity for him, but that would be the only thing.

According to the Cleveland Clinic, "Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR) therapy is a mental health treatment technique. This method involves moving your eyes a specific way while you process traumatic memories. EMDR's goal is to help you heal from trauma or other distressing life experiences."

I figured that since I have officially signed my release papers for it, so this coming Tuesday we will start the actual EMDR therapy, I will try to blog about it and keep up with it.

Here is to this new journey so I can continue to help people without having my anxiety attacks, and every time him or his family attempt to intimidate me, which they believe is a way to have power over someone and a joke, I will be able to just walk away instead of letting it affect me physically and internally.